Dating Life? Ha.

A couple of weeks ago I ended things with a man that checked so many of my boxes. But he belittled me, constantly hurt my feelings, and talked to me as if I was beneath him. A lot of women would have stayed cus y’all he was fine and physically had his life together, but why settle? In a lot of relationships, women are told to settle for pieces of the promise God has given them. While other women, mainly those who are not of color, appear to have it all. Honestly, it's just not worth it for me anymore. 

The word I was told all those nights I cried about not being loved and constantly being the single friend was that I’d be married & I’d have my family. So no you gon tell me I nag all the time when I’m advocating for my needs because the partner for me wouldn't dismiss that.

No, you cannot tell me to be grateful for the little attention you give me. I deserve abundance.

No, you're not gonna tell me how I should receive love.

So maybe he wasn't my forever person, but it will come. God has blessed me so much this year. Honestly, seeing 30 is a blessing I never thought I’d have. God has always kept me from making mistakes I couldn’t come back from so being quiet and just dwelling in a space where I have someone but don’t have peace of mind would have been worse than being single. I have seen what God can do, and God wouldn't want me to settle.

I think for me that was a lesson. I could have stayed, and I have in the past. Instead, I thought about how bad settling felt and I didn’t want it again. Growth is messy.

XOXO JAMIE